Retired professional wrestler, Saraya-Jade Bevis, popularly known as Paige, has revealed that she contemplated suicide after a leaked sex-tape some few years ago.
Newsbreak.ng recalls that in 2017, Paige had private intimate videos posted online by hackers, a traumatic incident she said left her experiencing stress-induced anorexia and alopecia.
“I was in San Antonio and it was just the most awful period of my life,” Saraya said to Renee Paquette on her recent podcast, The Sessions, on The Volume.
“The person that I was with at the time showed me a picture on Twitter. I was just like ‘Oh my God.’ I was like, ‘Is that real?’ because I couldn’t believe it was real at first.
“I was f***ing 19 years old, and I was completely f***ing mortified. I ran out of the house. I ran. I just kept f***ing running.”
The retired WWE star also revealed that she hid in a bush to avoid being recognised and a discussion with her father was what ultimately calmed her down.
“I was [hiding] inside a f***ing bush, thinking that if people recognise me they’re gonna know,” Saraya continued.
“I’d never wish that upon anyone, because that’s the most vulnerable part of you. I felt so stupid to have trusted this person at the time.
“I’ve never done it since. That was a f***ing lesson, I’ve learned, and I’ll never be caught dead doing it again.
“I felt so f***ing stupid, and so embarrassed, and was I already like a f-ing coke head at this time, and loved to drink, and that really f***ing got me to rock bottom where I didn’t really want to be alive anymore, dude.
“It was f***ing awful. I just was so f***ing sad. I remember being like, ‘if my dad is disappointed with me, I don’t think I could be here anymore’.
Furthermore, Saraya shared details of the conversation, stating both her father and brother were unshaken by the news.
“Well, what are you sorry for? Who cares?” Saraya’s father asked her.
“You had sex. Everyone’s done it. Unfortunately you’re just in the public eye. It is what it is. You’ve got to suck it up.
“It’s gonna hurt for a little bit. People are gonna make fun of you forever. I just want you to know that I’m still proud of you and I’m not disappointed.”