Opening up about a healthy sex life or the opposite is nothing new under the sun. Nigerian youths have been liberally having these conversations however, when it comes to oral sex, have you ever wondered what goes through the mind of a lady before she has her first oral sex experience?
Today’s topic is about Matilda who feels very insecure about having oral sex. She talks about how she has been having a lot of self-doubt in letting a man go down on her.
“First of all, I want to make it clear that I have no problem giving men blowjobs. When I started feeling a little weird about being eaten out was when I had a yeast infection at age 14. The first time I gave my boyfriend a blowjob was at the age of 16. We were just cuddling and he suggested we try something new. Before then, I had watched a couple of oral sex videos because a girl didn’t want to be caught off guard even if my boyfriend knew I hadn’t done it before. I wanted to at least act like I knew what I was doing. I sucked his di*k and he seemed impressed since it was my first time. He was 20 years old and had had a couple of blow jobs before we started dating. Next thing he wanted was to go full on 69 but I was sincere with him and told him I wasn’t comfortable yet.
“It didn’t even make it better when I heard that almost every woman gets a yeast infection at least once in their lives. Now that I’m 19, I still fantasize getting eaten out but if I’m going to be frank, I still have insecurities even in my fantasies. Is it body positivity? I’m like 50/100 positive about my body image, then the remaining 50% is insecurities with my vaginal area. Sometimes I’m worried that I’d never be comfortable with a man going down on me like what if he doesn’t like hair down there? And if he likes it smooth, will he find my ingrown hairs and bumps disgusting? What about the smell? What if my vagina smells nasty? Sis, I don’t even know what a nice smelling punani smells like. Does it smell like flowers? I remember an American artist who said in one of her songs that her pu**y tastes like Pepsi Cola and I often wonder, what if I taste salty and disgusting? What if he goes down there and shifts in disgust? What if after he eats me out, he never talks to me again? My friends often discuss all the pleasure they get from being eaten out with their dreamy distracted eyes and all I do is pretend that I can relate.
“I’m just left in my pool of insecurities because I wouldn’t even know how to act if my current partner finally says he wants to eat me out.”
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